I just realized that I’m too big for my age, and it sucks big time!
I’m giving dating advice and teaching about attraction to a 21 year old guy, who’s obviously confused.

I don’t like the feeling.
I have 2 options.
a) Try and talk like a 16 year old which may not help him.
b) Be a 30 year old dad that might help him and make me grow up even faster, which I obviously don’t want to happen.

“Rashu, you are mature for your age”
I get that a lot, and I seriously hate it…and the fact is, it might be true.
All I want is my childhood back. I was forced to grow up and I was given too much of responsibilities as a child.
I was not allowed to play, but I was supposed to take care of 7 younger cousins (I lived in a joint family).
I was not supposed to watch cartoon, because I had to help my mother with the house work when I was 6.
I was not allowed to be naughty because my mother wouldn’t tolerate a complaint about me being immature at that age.

I’ve skipped my childhood, and now I am in a position where I can’t turn back even if I want to.

When I watch kids play in the park, I get all jealous and ask myself “Why can’t I join them?”

It feels bad.

And NOW my mom says “Act your own age.”

I don’t know how.

I try to go out with kids and play…and sometimes, sneak into their play ground.
Children love me for some reason…probably because they can sense that I’m a wannabe child…or perhaps, a child at heart just like them.

Any suggestions?
I hope you understand what I’m saying.

Here’s some pictures.

*Best Wishes*
♪♣ Đǐvǐήέ Яάў ♣♪
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16? Not yet.
6 more days to go.
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